What would you do????????????

I love him completley and he feels the same yet he's not mine I don't like him all the time he pisses me off alot and I put him through hell we have an unhealthy relationship but its so beautiful at times we cant seem to let go on the other hand i get so sick of bickering should I wait for something I know will be great or do I listen to the B.... in me cause he isn't mine to begin with?